mungkin tidak akan ada lagi..

saya seronok bila awak marah saya.

sebab saya tau awak caring.

saya seronok bila awak belikan makanan utk saya.

sebab saya tau awak tak nak saya lapar.

saya seronok bila awak marah saya over-belanja.

sebab saya tau awak tak nak saya susah d kemudian hari.

saya seronok bila awak mengamuk saya tak makan ubat.

sebab saya tau awak nak saya cepat sembuh.

saya seronok bila awak suapkan ubat utk saya.

sebab saya tau awak nak saya cepat sembuh.

saya seronok bila awak bercerita tentang impian awak pd masa depan nnt.

sbb saya tau awak nak kongsi masa depan awak dgn saya.

saya seronok bila awak senyum walaupun saya marah.

sbb saya tau awak nak reda kan kemarahan saya.

saya seronok bila awak marah saya tak ungkapkan 3 perkataan penting.

sbb saya tau awak begitu pentingkan perkataan tu.

saya seronok bila awak sayangkan saya.

sbb saya tau awak boleh bahagia kan saya.

saya seronok bila bersama awak.

walaupun kadang-kadang kita salah faham

walaupun kadang-kadang kita marah

tp sayang itu masih ada.

tapi semua itu mungkin tidak akan ada lagi.

ya.

'mungkin'.

kerana saya masih menunggu.

More Than Words

lama gila dah tak update blog. busy busy busy. busy dgn FYP, busy dgn homework, busy dgn tusen, busy dgn tadika, busy dgn boifren, busy busy busy. busy mengalahkan lady gaga. esok ada test, saya baru je sudah menjalankan projek penghasilan toyol with one of my besties. walaupun busy buat toyol, my head keep playing this song.


Saying "I love you"
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew how easy
It would be to show me how you feel


More than words
Is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
'Cause I'd already know


What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real


What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying "I love you"


More than words


Now but I've tried to talk to you
And make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands
And touch me
Hold me close, don't ever let me go


More than words
Is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
'Cause I'd already know


What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real


What would you say if I took those words away
When you couldn't make things new
Just by saying "I love you"




translation of my favourite verse (d translet mengikut pandangan saya la):


"More than words
Is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
'Cause I'd already know


What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real"


lebih dr kata-kata
apa yg awk perlu buat adalah utk jadikan ia benar
jadi awk tak perlu lg ckp yg awk syg saya
sbb saya dah tau awk syg saya


apa awk akan buat kalau hati saya terluka n terbelah dua
lebih dari kata-kata utk tunjukkan apa awk rasa
yg kasih syg awk utk saya itk adalah benar




hye semua! kali ni saya bukan nak type entry emo. saya cuma nak tulis pasal lagu ni. fames kan? kita sebagai manusia memang senang nak ungkapkan kata-kata n kadang-kadang kita lupa dgn apa yg kita ckp n kita lupa utk tunaikan apa yg kita ckp. contoh nya mak suruh kita buang sampah, kita ckp "ok mak! coming!" tp kita masih gak depan tv tak berganjak-ganjak. ada jugak spisis manusia yg suka tabur janji-janji manis, tapi akhirnya hasilnya adalah pahit. tp dlm kisah lagu ni, ungkapan "I LOVE U" yg d pertikai kan oleh frankie j. nak ungkapkan i love u tu mmg senang. tapi utk buktikan nya? utk amalkan nya? susah tak? kalau kita rasa susah, mksd nya kata-kata tu hanyalah kata-kata semata-mata. tp kalau kita betul-betul maksudkan dgn ungkapan tu dari lubukkk hati kita, we surely can prove it by our action. kata-kata yg manis dpt d luahkan oleh sesiapa je. tapi perbuatan yg manis? tak semua org dpt buat, tak semua org dpt amalkan. ada gak org ckp, sesetengah org ni mmg tak reti nak tunjuk syg melalui perbuatan. tapi sampai bila? bayangkan kalau kita ada suami, suami kita hari2 ckp syg kat kita. tp perbuatan dia zero. sampai bila nak tahan kan? melainkan kalau hati kita keras mcm batu. kalau jadi batu senang la. tak pyh pk hati sendiri, tak pyh pk org lain, tak pyh pk assignment. senanggg. tapi saya manusia. bukan batu. eh! saya? bukan. bukan. lagu ni bukan kes hidup saya. saya cuma cerita apa yg fankie j bagitau saya lepas dia tulis lagu ni. kesian frankie j. mesti dia kesedihan. sbb tu dia tulis lagu mcm ni. tapi frankie j terer main guitar. best. dpt nyanyi2 sambil main gitar. ok, sekarang saya dah mula merapu. baik saya stop.




sampai sini saja utusan saya kali ni. bye!

tired..

i'm tired of all this.

letih.

penat.


i wanna end this.....

kadang-kadang saya lupa.

kadang-kadang saya lupa bila saya sibuk mengejar kebahagiaan sedangkan kebahagiaan yg sebenar dah ada d depan mata saya.


kadang-kadang saya lupa bila saya sibuk mengejar kesenangan dan mengelak dr kesusahan sedangkan kesenangan dan kesusahan dapat d kongsi dengan org d depan mata saya.


kadang-kadang saya lupa saya tidak berseorangan d bumi kenyalang ini sedangkan saya ada 3 permata d depan mata saya.

permata 1

permata 2

permata 3

i would never thought i can rely on them until the moment when i really2 need them, and they are there for me. forgetting all those bad things that happens between all of us, forgetting all those bad moments that happens between all of us. i know i've hurt them a lot. but no matter how bad the situation is, they are still my friend that i love.

please don't take my smile away. i want to smile like this forever.

hahahahaha!

sampai d sini saja utusan saya pd hari ni. bubye!

saya hanya mampu senyum..=)

Dunia ini adil.

Dulu saya pernah sakitkan hati awak sbb kesalahan yg saya buat.

Tp pada masa tu saya tak salahkan awak sbb awak marahkan saya.

Sebab saya tau, satu hari nanti, awak akan faham perbuatan saya ini.

Sebab saya tau, kalau awak d tempat saya, awak pun akan buat benda yg sama macam saya.

Saya hanyalah minority.

Jadi saya diam bila saya dituduh yg tidak baik.

Tapi sekarang.

Awak sedang melakukan benda yg sama mcm saya buat dulu.

Saya tak marah.

Saya takkan marah.

Sebab saya tau kenapa awak buat mcm tu.

Sebab saya tau prasaan terhimpit dan d himpit.

Sebab saya tau perasaan d kutuk atau d hina.

Saya tau sebab saya dah rasa semuanya.

Saya tak nak awak rasa apa yg saya rasa.

Jangan d halang perasaan itu.

Tunjukkan saja.

Saya takkan marah.

Tapi saya nak awak tau.

Dunia ini adil.

sampai cni saja utusan saya pd hari ni. bubye!

oh hujan...

Waktu kecik-kecik dulu pantang tgk hujan lebat, mesti mintak izin mak nak g main hujan. Kadang-kdanag mak bagi. Kadang-kadang mak tak bagi. Depend dgn keadaan hujan. Kalau hujan skali dgn petir kilat sabung mnyabung, confirm la mak tak bagi. Hehe. Bila mak bagi green light utk mandi hujan, saya mesti ajak adik saya skali. Mana best main hujan sorg-sorg kan? Time tu kecik lagi. Main hujan pun bodo-bodo je. Terlompat-lompat mcm dlm rumah takde shower. Hehe. 

Bila dah remaja sket, hujan pun tetap d sukai ramai. Sebab kalau hujan, tak payah bawak baju PJ. Kalau hujan, kofirm tak kena denda berdiri dlm longkang kalau homework tak siap. Kalau hujan, pintu pagar skolah takde pengawas jaga, jadi boleh dtg lambat. Kdg-kdg kalau hujan, mak or kakak dtg jemput sampai tepi pagar skolah sbb tak nak kita basah. Betapa nye hujan ni member banyak manfaat pada kita.

Tapi bila dah dewasa, hujan ni boleh jadi alasan yang kadang-kadang boleh memusnahkan diri kita. Slalu nya kalau hujan, kita akan jadi malas. Kecenderungan untuk kita tido time hujan adalah saaaangat tinggi. Apa yang saya tak suka pd hujan bila saya dah masuk university? Saya bukan tak suka pd hujan. Tapi saya tak suka pd diri saya yg menjadikan ‘hujan’ sebagai alasan kepada semua aktiviti bermanfaat saya. Tido seronok, sejuk, nyaman. Tapi bila hujan dah benti, matahari dah klua, kita baru nak sedar yg kta sebenarnya baaaanyak kerja yg tertangguh. Ada jugak yang sampai membatalkan janji sbb hujan. Mungkin si teruna n dara tu masih belom mampu nak beli payung. Ataupun, mungkin si dara takut air hujan akan cairkan makeup dia. Kesian si hujan. 

Sampai sini saja utusan saya pd hari ni. Bye!

p/s: saya taknak majlis akad nikah saya time hujan. Takut si bakal suami tak muncul-muncul kat masjid. Last-last saya sorg je yg mngadap tok kadi. Hehe.

Masih Cinta.

Tik,.,tik,.,.tik

Waktu berdetik

Tak mungkin bisa ku hentikan

Maumu jadi mauku

Pahitpun itu ku tersenyum

Kamu tak tahu rasanya hatiku

Saat berhadapan kamu

Tik,.,tik,.,.tik,.,.

Air mataku

Biar terjatuh dalam hati

Mau ku tak penting lagi

Biar ku buat bahagiamu

Kamu tak tahu rasanya hatiku

Saat berhadapan kamu

Kamu tak bisa bayangkan rasanya

Jadi diriku, yang masih cinta

Kamu tak tahu hancurnya hatiku

Saat berhadapan kamu

Kamu tak bisa bayangkan rasanya

Jadi diriku, yang masih cinta

Lately saya suka dengar lagu ni. i dunno y. i love the lyrics. setiap manusia dlm dunia ni ada kemahuan. ada yg mahu memiliki sesuatu, ada yg mahu meninggalkan sesuatu, ada yg mahu menyayangi sesuatu, ada yg mahu mkn sesuatu. macam-macam lah kemahuan. saya? saya pun baaaanyak kemahuan. kemahuan dan keinginan. mak saya pernah crita pd saya time dia mengandung, dia mengidam macam-macam. masa mengandungkan kakak saya, mak pernah mengidam nak mkn telur burung kasawari. ayah carikan. masa mengandungkan saya, mak mengidam nak makan mee bandung. asek makan mee banduuuung je die time tu. pun ayah carikan. masa mengandungkan adik saya, mak sepanjang masa nak cium bau sabun buku yg dihancurkan then d bungkus dlm kain. lucu kan? semua permintaan kitorg cuba penuhi sbb mak tengah mengandung. takut la jugak kan kot-kot nnt dpt adik or kakak yg meleleh2 air liur dorg. hehehe. abes kalau kita yg x mengandung ni ada kemahuan n keinginan mcm mana? kalau kemahuan tu kita dpt penuhi sendiri takpe. tapi kalau kemahuan tu kita tak dpt d penuhi sendiri? saya ada satu tabiat buruk yg saya sendiri tak suka. kalau saya nak kan sesuatu, saya akan cari sampai dpt. contoh nya makanan. kalau saya ckp saya nak makan kepci. kepci la yg d cari saya. kalau saya ckp saya nak mkn mcd. mcd la yg d cari saya. tak kira tempat n masa. tp sekarang baru saya sedar yg kita manusia biasa hanya mampu berdiam kalau kemahuan kita tu tak dpt d penuhi. lebih-lebih lagi kalau kita tak mengandung. kesimpulan nya, saya akan cuba untuk tidak meminta n menyimpan apa-apa kemahuan yg mungkin akan menyusahkan diri org lain. buang segala kemahuan. buang segala keinginan. sekarang nampak tak ape kaitan lagu masih cinta ni dgn kisah saya?

sampai sini saja utusan saya pd hari ini. bubye!

long.

it's been awhile i haven't write anything in this blog. i guess because i'm too happy celebrating my raya with my family. mayb i only will write when i'm not happy. mayb i only know how to express my sad feeling by writing. well, i dont think its a good idea if i only write sad things in this blog. nnt mesti jadi boring. nak buat mcm mana. my happiness can be seen from my face and my sadness can be seen from my writing. ek? yeke? its ok lah. atleast i dont have to bear this feelings alone. hehehe. kalau la dunia ni mengharamkan kita untuk blogging, i guess i have to saletep my mouth and ikat my hand . Luckily the world doesn't stop us from writing and talking. Currently, saya dah d kuching. sambung balik lepas cuti raya for 2 weeks. byk benda yg nak d tulis kat cni. tp malangnya saya tertinggal broadband and gamba-gamba raya d rumah. mungkin salah saya sbb packing last minute. so i'll wait for my broadband first, then i'll write things that i wanna write. sampai d sini sahaja utusan dr saya pd hari ini. bubye!

senior. junior.

Kalau org dah senyum, kita sepatutnya senyum balik kan? Kalau org dah tegur cara baik2, kita patut sahut teguran tu dgn baik la kan? Kalau org dah try nak bersembang, kita patut cuba not-to-end the topic la kan?

Currently...saya adalah pelajar tahun akhir... Or known as a senior here... Bukan nak membangga dengan pangkat 'senior' tu... I'm just saying that...sebagai sorg senior yg pernah jadi junior, u guys should know how to respect the people who is more 'senior' than u... Again...bukan mintak korg sujud senior-senior... Just a little respect sbg org yg dah lama ada dlm sesuatu organisasi tu... 

Kenapa saya tiba-tiba merapu pasal senior dan junior? Actually i'm having an uneasy situation where the people in my house are all juniors... And mereka sangat sumbung... I'm not saying yg saya ni peramah terlebih dose... Tapi kalau boleh, if i tried to smiled at u... Tak payah la sampai balas dgn jelingan kan? 

I dunno y i have a lots of problem with the junior...eh..bukan a lots...sikit je..hehe... I also have a question that i really-really-really wished that all the boys seniors could answer for me... "kenapa lelaki senior mudah tertarik pada gadis-gadis junior?" Can anybody answer me? Adakah kerana mereka 'baru'? Or..sbb mereka 'muda'? I still can't figure it out why.... One more thing.... Bila gadis-gadis junior ni dah jadi senior mcm mana? Cari junior baru? Hurmmmm..... Kerana ini juga lah...gadis-gadis junior merasa kan diri mereka GAH di hadapan gadis-gadis senior or shud i say kakak-kakak senior? ahaha...

Ahhh...sekarang saya dah makin merapu... Apa-apa pun... Saya harap awak...adik junior...akan mengurangkan kepenjelingan awak itu... Tak susah pun nak senyum... Lagipun...senyum kan dpt exercise otot muka... Nnt dah buat exercise muka, muka jd tegang, makin cantek... Kan kan? Jadi... SENYUMMMM!!

oversleeping!

Effects of Oversleeping

* Obesity – Your body can’t make good use of energy from food when you’re sleeping so it's forced store it as fat. The longer you sleep, the less energy you'll need.

* Headaches – Caused by the effect oversleeping has on the neurotransmitters in the brain. Dehydration can also play its part.

* Back pain – Unless you've got one of those funky memory foam mattresses, laying in bed for too long will lead to back pain. Plus, People prone to back pain are encouraged to keep active and obviously you're not keeping active if you're in bed!

* Heart disease - Research shows a link between people who sleep 9 to 11 hours per night and a 38% increased chance of coronary heart disease. The reason for this link is not yet known.

* Death – Undeniably the most serious effect! People who sleep 9 or more hours per night have a higher death rate than those who sleep 7 to 8 hours per night. The reason for this is thought to be down to the psychological effects associated with oversleeping.

Along with the physical, there’s quite a lot of negative psychological effects related to oversleeping.

When you oversleep, there's no denying you're just wasting time on something that is actually unhealthy for you. So when you wake up and see exactly how much time you've wasted, you feel pretty rubbish. The feeling isn’t helped by the fact you know you’ll have difficulty getting to sleep that night. Especially annoying if you’re doing your best to keep up a steady sleep pattern. Oversleeping and missing appointments (especially with your love ones) and social activities can be a real problem. When you’ve overslept, it’s hard to get stuck into work and make a success of the rest of the day. Besides feeling rubbish, your mind feels foggy and clogged.

baca dgn teliti k...apa-apa benda pun dlm dunia ni pun kalau kita buat over-over, akan menghasilkan kesan negatif.. contohnya..

over makan...nanti gemuk..

over make-up...nanti muka mcm hantu...

over blaja...nnt otak bingung...

over b'belanja...nnt bankrupt...

over jimat...nnt kena tuduh kedekut...

over blogging..nnt jd makin boring...

over tido? paham-paham sendiri la...

jadi..kita perlu lah bersederhana dlm apa2 je yg kita buat...

this article i dedicated especially for YOU... yes..YOU...

kosong..

juz came back from my tuisyen class...
tired...
but still have to study for my test..
siot btul, ptg td baru tau ada test...
have to revise from chapter 1-4...
i'm taking this subject together with him...
but i guess i have to study this alone..

ptg td kecik ati ngan sumone...
maybe kita x boleh baik sgt dgn org lebih2 lagi kalau org tu tak reti nak hargai apa yg kita buat...

ptg td kecik ati ngan si dia..
nampak saya kat bazar, tp x dtg tego..
dia ckp sbb kwn2 dah ajak naik bilik...
jd dia takut kwn2 dia yg ramai tu kecik ati kalau dia dtg tego saya..
mungkin btul apa dia buat..
mungkin btul sbb kwn2 dia kan lagi ramai...
jadi baik jaga hati org ramai drpd jaga hati org perseorangan kan?
hurmm..
tp hati saya mcm mana?
jaga sendiri lah..
letak dlm oven...
campur cheese sket...
makan...
nyummm3...
mesti sedap...

otw blk dr tusyen td kecik ati ngan baby bink..
haihh...
nape la ko kuat sgt mkn minyak...
abes duit saya sbb nak bg baby bink ni kenyang...
otw blk td pegi isi minyak kat area unimas...
sangat-sangat-sangat takut sbb smua yg tgh isi minyak time tu lelaki..
except for me..
but alhamdulillah..
evrything was fine...
baby bink bjaya d isi...
and wallet bjaya d kosong kan...

i hate it..

i hate it when i have the feeling to write about sumting sad...

today was the worst day of Ramadhan ever...(hope.this.is.the.first.and.the.last.time.i.had.it)

have u ever feel sumting like this?

the moment when u feel u want to eat with ur mom n ur dad..suddenly they are not there...

the moment when u feel u want to eat with ur crazy sisters...suddenly they are not there...

the moment when u feel u want to eat with ur special one...suddenly he rejected...

i don't want to have another 'today' tomorrow...please...its hurting me....

gatal gatal...

tgn gatal.. kaki gatal.. mata gatal.. semua gatal.. dah kronik ni...

tgn gatal nak klua kan duit nak shopping baju..

kaki gatal nak g shopping mall nak shopping baju...

mata gatal asyik tgk baju cantek2 kat online shopping nak shopping baju..

BILA NAK UJUNG BULAN NI.....

belajar apa itu "itok"...

sekarang saya percaya ckp si dia bila si dia ckp muka saya lain dlm tiap2 gamba..=p

btw...yeayyy! saya dah pandai post gamba..=D

new word: "itok"..thought by one of my besties, seha...and rite now saya sedang ke-itok-an dgn benda ni...=(

ni nama dia EGG MOUSE...sangat-sangat-sangat kiut!!

sekarang saya sangat-sangat-sangat itok... saya mahuuuu~

seronok-seronok post entry..=D

Girl Language...

When i dont call you

[ Its because im waiting for you to call me ]

When i walk away from you mad

[ Follow me ]

When i stare at your mouth

[ Kiss me ]

When i push you or hit you

[ Grab me and don't let go ]

When i start cussing at you

[ Kiss me and tell me you love me]

When i'm quiet

[ Ask me whats wrong/Or mess with me. ]

When i ignore you

[ Give me your attention ]

When i pull away

[ Pull me back ]

When you see me at my worst

[ Tell me i'm beautiful ]

When you see me start crying

[ Hold me and tell me everything will be alright ]

When you see me walking

[ Sneak up and hug my waist from behind ]

When i'm scared

[ Protect me ]

When i lay my head on your shoulder

[ Tilt my head up and kiss me ]

When i tease you

[ Tease me back and make me laugh ]

When i don't answer for a long time

[ reassure me that everything is okay ]

When i look at you with doubt

[ Back yourself up ]

When i say that i like you

[ I really do more than you could understand ]

When i grab at your hands

[ Hold mine and play with my fingers ]

When i bump into you

[ bump into me back and make me laugh ]

When i tell you a secret

[ keep it safe and untold ]

When i look at you in your eyes

[ don't look away until i do ]

When i miss you

[ i'm hurting inside ]

When you break my heart

[ the pain never really goes away ]

When i say its over

[ i still want you to be mine ]

some guys said dat gurls are weird...gurls are hard to understand...but u guys have to remember...behind a successful man, there always a gurl who never givup to stand behind u... =)